RPR: What value did you get from your ibogaine treatment?
H. I feel a lot more energy, feeling younger, remembering how to care about myself
So feeling younger, what do you mean by that?
I feel psychologically and physically younger. For a while I was feeling old and worn out and beat up and now I don’t.
RPR: What did you expect and how did it differ from the actual treatment?
H. I noticed the changes occurred gradually after the trip. Right after the trip I felt like I was overwhelmed with the awe of it all and slowly I was able to incorporate those feelings into my daily existence. I felt better as the days progressed. I guess it is probably because I was tired for a while after it all. I was a little worried at first that it didn’t work but it did.
RPR: Give a Brief characterization of addiction before and how you feel after ibogaine?
H. Before I looked at hard drugs as if they were harmless as weed, not that they were harmless but I just didn’t have a…I don’t know how to say it. It all boils down to caring about myself. Before I felt like doing those drugs was kind of taking care of me, it was quite a wakeup call to remember how terrible it has been. It was impossible to maintain the addiction before. So recognizing that was nice because now I don’t feel like doing that any more.
RPR: Do you feel ibogaine has helped you physically, psychologically or both?
H. Yes, both! I definitely feel better.
RPR: How do you feel about your outlook for the future, where is your head at there?
H. It is bright. The future is my bitch! (Laughs). I think that is a pretty good way to sum up my potential.
I am the architect, the artist of my own universe. I realize I have some good skills and I need to use them. I want to focus on one or two things that I don’t mind doing often and make that work.
RPR: Is there anything else you wish you had known before your treatment so you could have been more prepared?
H. I don’t think there is anything else I could have prepared for. Key was being calm, trusting the process, trusting you guys, not being anxious. As far as danger is concerned seemed like I did really well with vitals and things. With what I was experiencing I thought my heart rate would have been all over the place but it was totally stable.
RPR: How was your experience with the medical staff?
H. The doctors and EMTs were so sweet. I was surprised by how into it the doctor was. There was no judgment, no questioning. He was all about it (the medicine). It was reassuring.
RPR: Brief summary of Coca and Romy, do you feel like we provided a caring environment, did we take good care of you?
H. Oh yeah! I felt spoiled as hell. I haven’t had that kind of treatment in a while, if ever!
RPR: What are your thoughts about the therapist and coach?
H. They are a good asset, for sure.
RPR: Do you think typical patient will be better served by therapy or coaching or both?
H. Hard to say what others will need as everyone is so different. I think this would be a good thing for people who have tried other things that haven’t worked because it is so unconventional. Way different. The inward looking aspect of it is a big one because a lot of people are so overwhelmed with the external and they lose sight of what is going on inside. I think when you address what’s inside the external becomes way easier.
RPR: So you are around 30 years old and have gone through the ups and downs of life. So how do you think this treatment would be for someone around 18 or 19?
H. Probably better because you can nip it in the bud. If I had done this years ago I think I would have been way better off. It would have been easier and I wouldn’t be as beat up. I think the less beaten down by life you are the easier it would be.
RPR: Did the facility meet your expectations? Give us a brief summary of Rocky Point Recovery.
H. It more than met my expectations. It was very comfortable. Super relaxing, it was like a vacation – full service! I really think it was perfect. I am not very critical but I can’t think of anything. It was great and it was super easy. Normally I would be anxious to get out and be free and do my own thing but I was totally content just chilling here, that’s a big deal.
RPR: Brief summary, how do you view the medicine? What does it have to teach people?
H. It teaches you how to find meaning in your own existence and self-worth
RPR: What advice do you have for anyone else who is taking this medicine?
H. Those first couple of days are really crucial days to keep thinking. Don’t be discouraged if people seem like they are falling back and kind of sad. They will more than likely figure out the reason why. I didn’t know why I was all depressed and bummed out and it is still kind of beyond me but something changed. I still can’t pinpoint it. It’s not even an idea, words can’t describe it. It’s like you just have to feel that love again. I used to be able to look at a puddle of mud and see the beauty in it but I lost it, now I have that back.